Yeah! The Same Four Years Folklore

I knew not what bound us together, despite all odds including those quarrels, perspective differences and long term fights. Insults and sarcasms being the part of daily talks, didn’t bother us much, after all we belonged to the same side of coin. Yet whenever we thought it was the last of times we would be together, it suddenly turned out that both of us had an invisible elastic rope tied between us. The farther we stretched, the closer we would get when it pulled us back. The four years of troughs and crests laid a cemented foundation that neither of us knew would stiffen with time. And as my parents say, “There is a reason why people enter your life and leave when the purpose is done.” Some reasons surely turned out well as time passed yet I believe it’s a lot more than fulfilling a purpose or supporting a reason. It is more about building an unbreakable kinship and I guess there is no exit made to it yet.

This journey, yea the same four years, going through the best and the worst together, if not then at least equally would be righteous to say it. Standing for each other and even against each other at times was a part of this traversal. From making the worst foes to shifting with the best friends, we are finally static.

For someone who knows all your weaknesses, it is dangerous to stand face to face with that someone but it is equally amazing to know how much that person loves you and cares for you despite knowing you all. Whether it was strangulating each other with respective weaknesses or lifting the spirits up to bring out the best in the other, we never stood back in any of these deeds. It turned out to be a raw friendship, more of natural and intense in all aspects. From ringing the bells of anger and skeptics in our parents to making them proud and content, we did it all, yet again together.  Sometimes it makes me laugh when I think of all the mischievous deeds we enacted, and got screwed. But isn't there the most of fun in doing what is forbidden?

I wish I could make a movie out of the golden years that just passed by and watch it over and over again. I wish that the time that is yet to come brings with it more of such lively moments and unforgettable times. And since this fable of ours hasn't ended yet, I wish to write more, about us, about our ‘deeds-done-together’ as we move ahead in time and create beautiful memories.




Yea, Thats real blood guys, don't freak out, just one of the crazy stuffs we did..:P ;)

The 'U' Turn

Globe trotters, the van reads from behind. Petit pupils in single bright colored attires sit beside each other compactly. A pair is into game with no rules, no equipments, and just four hands clapping each other repeatedly. Chattering and laughing follows unceasingly. I look at the school van from my office cab.

                                 The transformation in time is clearly visible, the difference being that I sit in a vehicle where even the engine feels guilty of roaring out too loud. People look out of their windows contemplating over the possibilities and the impossible of their made up life. Some carry expressionless faces while others have their eyes closed shut under the weights of their inadequate sleeps.

The van and the cab each have their own destinations. One is jingling with joy and the other just trying hard to reach where it is supposed to. Passing across the traffic signals seems like counting the minutes of delay to reach the place of work. The cab zooms across the minutest space available to drop its passengers on right time. Meanwhile the van cheers up, as the road swells. Seems none of the little travelers get bothered by that.

As the end of the day, what workers get is money while globe trotters gain knowledge, and something else which they don’t realize but former do.   You always tend to notice more of what you don’t have rather than what you have got.

The traffic is at its peak in the morning hours. There is a mini race at the U-turn between the traffic coming and the one cutting a U. Horns blare all over the road. People click their tongues and make sounds of frustrations creeping in their heads as the time runs ahead of their pace. Everyone wants to rush forth together where the space is only for few. Vehicles vibrate with power, the sleek ones making their way out somehow.

Here the road diverges, the van takes a soft turn while the cab rushes ahead reaching 60 in one go, horns following its every move.

It is sad and happy both that the little pupils don’t know what they are heading towards, only the time does and now even I do.

               

IMPRINTS of Time

                                                              IMPRINTS of Time

      Sometimes I see shadows

Playing somewhere in a corner            

Sometimes I hear voices,

    The pitch too high

           Sometimes flashes of memoirs blur the reality

     And I sneak-peak back into past

       I smile, happily, joyously to myself

             I realize that a bag full and heavy I have restored

              From the very best moments of my life

            Decorated with glitters of laughter, sparkles of strives

           A pinch of even those tears shimmer in it

Balloons full of love and life, hate bait sarcasms, craziness and insanity

   In unison with the fun filled fights

And up and up they have flown

   Over many many moons of time

Sometimes I come to this place,

Where a film roles before me

And I watch it keenly,

              All the magic moments again and again and again

        Sometimes the places around me become alive

           And I see outlines of people moving, talking, laughing

  It for once forces me to believe,

         To believe that there is a little bunch of insanes

Until I see myself among them,

                Churning the sweetness out of life and breathing it in deeply and merrily

      I see myself riding over the stallion

            And winning every game with pals along side

  I see shields hard for any power of world outside

  Soft and mild at my end

                Dusted with time and eroded by that very world

               I find those spots worthless, dim and dejected

                 What remains is fossilized time and deeply buried nostalgia

    Of that I am the owner and the treasurer

      These instances as they passed,

       Jeopardized me with their very ends

         But as I stand at the brim today

          I satisfy my fears with just one line-

       “Nothing could have been better”

        I drank from the chalice of life

         And sprang from my very own ashes

       The journey moves forth,

                  

But sometimes just sometimes

I see shadows playing somewhere in a corner

                  

Sometimes I hear voices, the pitch too high

                   And with a sneak-peak back into past

    I smile happily, joyously to myself.

     

Because Men will be Men

Because Men will be Men..

“Bs karr yar,  kitna ghurega (enough dude, how long will you stare)”, I asked my friend who had made an angle of almost 180 degrees hinging his neck from one side to other. Being a girl, I had to accept, that be it my own friend or just any stranger plus be it male, he is bound to gawk the she-species. This fact, I anticipate, every human, seems to accept. Some take it as stalking, while some enjoy the attention. Hearing from our own brothers, we were bestowed with the knowledge, that guys notice people or females (to be more precise), far more properly. I had a doubt, and thus came up with a question to my own cousin.

          

   “When is it that you find that a girl is hot? When she is coming or when she is going?”

The question made him turn pink as I gave him an innocent yet sarcastic gaze. Never mind that question dear all, curiosity is good as they say. And hey after all that you must be wondering I got my answer or not.

Negative.

 But instead I once found one of my he-friends saying,

“Yar piche se hot lagti hai aage se nai (she looks hot from behind not from front).”  I had no thoughts left after this, but was just in contemplation what he might have thought before saying so.

There were times when I heard about guys in our college ranking the girls from 1-to- 10 or more like who is hotter, on a self made webpage. When I questioned one among them, the reply came like hey I gave you more points than her, be happy!  Sad that we had a phone conversation, else my heels would have been over his head, literally.

 Surprisingly you get apps for that now on your smart-phones. And even more surprising 

was when I came to know that Mark Zuckerberg made a threshold to his discovery with the same idea. I was moved!

And thus we, I and my female-friend made a counter move. Sitting at the most happening place in our college, we would rank guys.

       Eager to know what we looked at while ranking?  Nothing much, except the way they walked, the way they talked, what color shirt they wore, what footwear they wore, their nails, especially toe nails, their hairstyle, their accessories, their way of sitting, standing, staring others and many more things. We would both laugh, pass comments, categorize them, pester them, yes we did so and only we know how much fun it was when they gave back an annoying look.

So if gaping is a self right, why should boys have all the fun. If you stalk others, you should be ready to get stalked by others.

  ..“ Beta! Mann mei laddoo foota?” .. 

Fact 1: Which guy on earth wouldn’t want a girl to stalk him?!   Universal truth!

Fact 2: Guys will be guys, no matter what age they are.

How many eyes could you fork out even if it was legally allowed? No living-man would be left with a vision, if that was righteous. Blame it on the testosterone levels or call it a natural complexity, but you got to accept the fact.

So there came a time in times when,

Me: “Yar I will give Him 8.5.”

My he-friend:”Why? He is good, deserves better.”

Me:” Nah, He is slouching while walking and look at His jeans, as if dying to fall down!” , “Never mind, look! I will give Her 7.5. You tell.”

My friend: “Ruk ja, pehle jaane to de use, tb btata hu( wait , let her keep going, then I ll tell.”

      Men will be Men..

DEAR MOM

These words are mere alphabets of a language if they don’t ever mention you as an element of my thoughts. I have always been a part of you, deep down to the flesh and bones. Even the blood that flows in my veins were never my own but inherited from you. The heart that resides in this alive body had begun its first beat within your walls of affection and care. You gave me home to dwell, you gave me life to live, you gave me breaths to survive and asked for nothing in return.

You are magic and I marvel at your soul of which I am a puny part. I triumph in the joy of being like you, partially if not completely. I am nothing but your shadow. I take you along with me, wherever I go.

Keep me close to your heart whose rhythm is music to my life. Your warmth is the peace to my rippled soul. Your arms are condolences to my scars.

I pray, wish and hope selflessly and desperately for your well being and happiness. It is what matters and nothing else will, so strongly and so sincerely to me because I had begun from you and my world ends at you. Outside the covers of your veil is a combination of two words- fake and fraud. You are the only truth and only you are real. Rest is translucent, blurred and surreal. Purity is you second name

DEAR MOM.

Life began with waking up and loving my mother's face

The Secret

                                                                                                                                                                       

Believe

This piece of work is dedicated to one of my dear friends. To add on, this isn’t something about you, but something for you. Believe me, you’ll like it. J

When the most hopeful loses all his hope, when the dry leaves of autumn, shed unceasingly, warning about the coming cold winter, you know it is going to be tough endlessly. The light at the end of the tunnel isn’t visible at all. Feathers of your spirit seem falling one by one. The faith that you held inside is flickering like a candle that has just reached its dead end. The winds are retarding you, pushing you to turn back and be gone. The rains are drenching you, flooding your heart with grief that you feel and it shows, yes! On your face, behind those swollen eyes that have tried many a times to stop from getting watery. The last lie you told to someone, twisting the words, to just comfort their curiosity.

You are tired now, tired of waiting to get out of this storm, which seems to bind you in chains of self disappointments . Time and again you see your hope collapsing like a castle of playing cards, by the slightest of winds. Drowning time and again in the vessels of your own trials and errors, what kind of struggle is this, you ask yourself, feeling bitter with every crash of your hopes and aspirations.

Blindfolded you are from the success whose shadows you touch and it swirls away. You are in a game and you desperately want to win like many others though holding the torch of hope with every try is a pain rather than positivity. You are exhausted and drained out of your own strengths.

                                                                                                                            The hope is dead.

Look up!    

Now that the hope is dead, there is nothing to be scared of, to grieve for, and to be dreaded from.

Get up! Not because you are deluded with the faintest of light at the end of the tunnel or a leaf that you still see green. Don’t see the light of the candle as a ray of the morning sun. Don’t get duped in your own imagination of how hope would bloom out from somewhere.  Don’t drown in your own spirit that rises and falls like a mercury, don’t let it be circumstantial.

The word to be preached is not hope but belief. Hope is disguising you from something you can’t see far beyond. Hope is killing you inside with every blow of fate that lands hard enough to shake your grounds. Hope makes you think like an incomplete puzzle and that you will get a missing piece of yourself, somewhere out there. Hope is making you weak.

So throw that old rusty four letter word into trash and hit a six with ‘Belief’!

        Believe in the person you see in mirror every morning. Believe in the abilities that make you armed with confidence. Believe in the achievements, that you and only you made possible, which even in the wildest of your dreams you never thought would happen. Believe in the miracles you did and made people proud and some even jealous and envious! Believe that you are not just someone in the crowd, but someone without whom some things would be as dull as a grey sky. Believe in the sunshine inside you that gets fueled by the fire which never died away even when the worst of winters, floods or tornadoes came by.

      If then why not now?     … Believe in yourself and things will turn upside down, no matter how impossible it seems. Embrace yourself, believe in your abilities and most importantly in the spirit within you and witness a prodigy, resulting out of your sweat and struggles.

…And don’t forget to buckle up yourself, for the times when the sun outside shines just for you, the night dances with your laughs, the success that you chased would come all the way to become your own shadow. ;)

           

                                                                                                                                                       

       Thesaurus:

 retarding- slowing down;     deluded-made a fool of/ cheated;   prodigy: a wondrous, unbelievable act;

embrace- hold in your arms;    envious-jealous

Intangible Dreams

         The darkness pats me to sleep

     The silence sings lullabies

     The breeze blows a chill as

      It moves my cradle and flees

      But I, the Child of Thoughts

      Run down the pitch black night

      Into the mighty world

      Behind my closed eyes

      Of sudden flood of things

      That gallop in my head

      I open up-to real

      Still laying in my bed

      Then I look out of window

      At the only source of light

      In the sky like a picturesque painting

      It hung deep in my sight

      I wished, to touch it

      Feel it with my mind

      I longed, to behold it

      For the rest of my life

      The stars gave away

      Their glitter in its shimmer

      Those twinkles that I could spot

      Broke themselves in a nightmare

      Thus unreachable, intangible

       I faced towards reality

      And went to sleep again

          To live my dreams apparently

REALITY Check..!

Each of you reading this article now, I am sure, must have faced one or the other troubles of life, raw and rich in pain, anguish, anger, hopelessness, dejection, misery, gloominess and all the negative it has to offer. Each of you had to go through certain hardships whose depths and degrees are known no-one but you. The failures and fallacy that had dawned upon you must have had churned your confidence and crushed your beliefs. You slowly remember what I am talking about, don’t you? You can relate it all to that bad time that had crossed your way sometime or may be is the biggest rock in your path right now.

Life is not a bed of roses. Well I would say it is a bed of roses, unless you accept that the thorns are actually a part of the damn flower. In order to reach the sweet honey, few stings from the bumble bee are unavoidable! Now you would say look! She is all muttering some silly quotes to cheer me up! Aye! You may say that. That is the part of every nonsense but necessary talk that someone does to cheer up your mood and take you out of your despair. So I began the usual way.

Troubles! Cherish them! Not for the pain and the agony they have to offer but for the gift of experience that they deliver unknowingly. When a child starts to walk, or let us say when You started walking, you must have fallen innumerable times. You must have collided with the door and dropped on your butt! You must have slipped and landed on your head! (Believe me people still fall even after learning how to walk!)  Now look at you! Can you walk?  Why? Because when you were young and you wanted that small white car lying far from you, too far to crawl and discomfort you knees, your mind thought of an alternative…walk! So you tried to lift yourself, on all fours first, took your mommy’s support or may be assistance nearby, wobbled at first, may be fell again, but walked over and grabbed that piece of toy.    

   

Moral of your story? You got what you dearly wanted.

This is when you reach the toy. Then there is another counter case where you don’t reach the toy, you try hard but it seems to get out of the hand, rolling over farther under the sofa, as you try to touch and grab it. Even after trying your best, you fail. What you did then? Cry! Sadness, anguish and despair played around you. Did you give up then? No! You told your mom to help you out. She put the broom stick under it and pushed the toy out from the other end. Next time same thing happened as your red ball rolled in. Did you cry again? Did you ask for help? No! You brought the broomstick and tried to get the ball on your own. And this time you got it.

You knew if you used your hand the ball would have gotten off the grip and moved further, so you didn't repeat your mistake, may be not the same mistake again. Something similar goes on when you are all grown up. The difference is that the white car is replaced by a girlfriend/boyfriend or that red ball is replaced by a job. The urge to get what you want, the emotions linked with not getting it is all the same though more intense.

                                        
                                            

Being steady is not a mechanism here in this world. The time keeps on changing with every tick of its needles. Change is inevitable and the wheels are in motion all the time. Right now as you read this, things are changing drastically behind you, around you, inside you, everywhere. This time which now seems black like a dark night is simply changing its shades from violet to indigo to blue to green and to the blooming colors there forth. You may not notice what you are gaining out of it because it is still small, invisible, and puny.  It will show itself on a big picture soon. I won’t say every cloud has a silver lining. I am no philosopher or someone who has seen life from distance and deduced its mechanism. I am nobody to explain to you the mystical strategies and stipulations of life. I am an explorer, not even in the supposedly midway of my trail, and I think experience has a great role in summarizing the inference out of this long walk.

Wherever you are, on the rocks, wet in rain, or dried under sun, it is a moment toenjoy grief, because time will definitely come when you walk bare-feet over wet grass, under the shades and when you do so you will remember the rocks that took you over to these grounds and how sweet it is to taste your own sweat and get over with it. With the umbrella of experience over you, you might even prevent the rain from wetting you again or the sun to burn you up. If something is unavoidable, unpredictable and not understandable you can’t let it pass through you like a ghost, haunting you half the way. The consequence are there of course, but as far as you control your outlook towards it, it is going to hollow you like a termite to wood.

So guys and girls, enjoy the grief, embrace your emotions and make peace with yourself. The time is ticking right behind your eyes. The tide that flipped your boat has the potential to drive you to the shore (provided you know how to swim). Enjoy your surf over the gloom and the boon equally. You never know when the winds change their path and drive you through the muddle. 

The Writer

With intent to write something I open the usual MS-Word. When a blank page opens up, it stares at me as if reflecting the intellects of my mind. The dark, still and numb blankness, waits to be filled with the aroma of thoughts. Then slowly the thoughts start building up, as if flying like a flock of birds, one after another, in a row, painting the canvas beneath the cranium. Slowly it triggers a landslide, and in an instant I see myself typing. To bring about the small wonders of the big world into few words and phrases may not seem a big task. What is necessary is to grab your attention… yes yours!

A writer I am, and I seek your attention. Not to be famous or acclaimed but to be appreciated for my piece of work, my thoughts, for the least to just go through it once, whole of it at a time. I want to connect with you. A mind-to-mind, rather heart-to-heart tunnel, that beams out to you an essence of my thoughts, and in return get your attention and approval.

What not we try, to prevent your eyes, from doodling over to your phone every other second or leave the read even for a moment. Sarcasm, jokes, just-kidding truths, matter of facts or even fiction. Yet you wander off. Well if you did, come back please.

The cursor blinks again, may be thrice a second, waiting to be shifted the right way. Thinking is in the process. I look up, towards the only light source that lights up my room, bring my eyelids down, stop at some spot and blur my vision, until I cast about, inside my head, looking for the right words to pop out. Vision back to the screen, fingers jumping from key to key, I am writing again.

Meanwhile you get bored, may be, “God! When is it going to get finished? “. You ask your brain, what to do next, leave it half way and get back to checking your phone; just in-case another text just arrived.I can only hope you don’t do that. I try my best to keep you affixed.

I am a writer, never perfect and craving for it. Your reaction is my scorecard. I need you to be as still as you are while taking a picture. No don’t move, don’t shift, blink less, and keep on reading, left to right. 

You came down, thank you. I think I have got your eyeballs now. Follow me!

My world isn't a piece of cake

                                                Neither is it a cakewalk

               

                  You follow me here and if you don’t

                                                                                               

You are always free to walk

               

                               

This way please…      Thank you..