Ever found luck, showering bliss unceasingly upon you? Ever
feared the too good that is making your life next to perfect? Ever felt that
nothing could be more satisfying and scaring at the same time as this?
Whilst the glee occurs and makes you more than happy, a fear
lures in the shallow corners of the mind.
A friend of mine said the other day,” If I laugh for 10 long
minutes, I will be heartily happy for the next 9 minutes but the last one
minute I think, what wrong is going to happen next?” . I wondered if she read
my thoughts out.
Insecurity dissolves in the amalgam of too much happiness,
as if saying
‘Too much of something is
not good.’
For how long is this
laughter going to stay as there needs to be balance so how much ever you laugh
you need to cry proportionally
Thus keeping the warning words of the mind in mind, some fail to conceive the
happiness wholeheartedly. What if this good is the harbinger of the bad!
Beautiful yet ominous.
Look I know it is wrong to assume and good things do happen
but the fear of something worse diminishes the vigor of the latter. The
multiple feels and phases conquer the mind like swirls of winds, swooping off
the cherry on the cake. No matter how hard tried, I still have to pinch myself
sometimes thinking it can’t be reality.
So far that good?! Uh-uh!
I deny the reality and hinge around the beliefs of my mind
but when even those beliefs break off, I blink twice and then thrice, in
apprehension.
This can’t be man! I can’t be so lucky! Life
can’t be so good!
Then from somewhere there is a blow of reality again. I
muster up myself to see another figment of luck, goodness, laughter and all the
things that make me glad.
I swallow hard and watch the moment
in disbelief still not able to digest.
