Showing posts with label alone. Show all posts
Showing posts with label alone. Show all posts

Thursday, May 18, 2017

A Wild Rainy Night



The previous day, when the rains took the earth by surprise, I found myself walking alone in the streets at 10 O’clock in the night, partially protected by my old and debilitated umbrella .

A good friend of mine was leaving the city so we planned to meet before he left for home. After bidding him a goodbye, I walked my way back to my abode, which was a good 1-kilometer walk. The winds were fierce, and the streets were being swept away with dried leaves, twigs and dust. The gaudy restaurants on either side of the road were being shut down in haste. Some ice-cream parlours still kept their business running with couples pleasuring themselves with late night deserts. Small cigarette shops glowed in their tiny spots waiting for the legitimately addicted customers.

I walked down, road after road. Few drops of water poked on my skin, however, I refused to open my umbrella. The rain took over me and left me with no choice—I finally gave in. Battling the winds, I inclined my umbrella against the slanting rains.

Crossing a two-way road, I reached near the divider to go the other side. The endless stream of headlights bothered me more than the downpour—I waited to cross the road for nearly 10 minutes. Cars and cars vomiting out from one side of the road spoiled the beauty of the wild rainy night—but the weather raged back despising humanity.

I seized the opportunity and made a dash to the other side of the road—my umbrella, trying its best to keep the rain away followed me lazily. I turned towards an empty street—and believe me when I say the scene looked enchanting! 
The mystic sodium lamps gave the heavy rains and the wet roads a tint of orange—the colour of fire, yet it soothed my eyes to see the rainfall I could hear the music in the pitter-patter, the rustling of the winds and the solitude in the darkness of the night. There was not a human around—the only one I saw was a man struggling with his mechanical bike that had refrained from starting. A car flashed its artificial light spoiling the atmosphere for a minute or two. Following the street, I entered the lane from where the building that offered me shelter didn’t stand much far.

The lightening roared announcing of its power and traveled miles across the sky cutting the clouds, bringing the night to life. I looked up and felt the rain falling from high up in heavens gently touch my face. The Ashoka trees, which I had never before noticed standing on the sides of the road, swayed like tall giants, dancing and closing in on the dark sea of sky. The view was dangerously beautiful. I was frightened—not by the rains or the wilderness, but by the vastness of the world around me and the power of nature—which I thought I should be. I removed the curtain of plastic sheet protecting me from the purest form of water and drenched myself with the eternal bliss. Nature’s gift so easily available, yet missed by all.

I reached home and had some hot milk with oats. Soon, my blanket welcomed me in its warmth and I fell asleep to the most peaceful sleep I got in days.

P.S – Well, things didn’t happen as perfectly as in a fairy tale. After reaching home, I enjoyed the downpour once again on the terrace, had a cup of milk, of course, watching the rain. My sleep betrayed me because I checked in on my facebook, whatsApp and, then, youtube. When I finally closed my eyes, I realized I had caught a cold.

Saturday, October 15, 2016

Generation Y ?!


I am worried about today’s generation.    

    Haha! Look! The granny is giving gyan! Must be high on stuff!

Wachya' sayin ??!!?


Coming back..

WE, we feel we are better off today, than our parents. We have better understanding of things around us, be it other person’s ill intentions or our own ways to get a situation in control. We feel we have an experience worth a mention and we can govern our own lives; in fact, live it the way that suits us. We feel more independent, and hence more confident.

The way most see it but won’t accept it is that we are vulnerable. We sniff falsehood like gas leakage from an LPG cylinder. We fail to trust again and again. We maintain personal distances from people, but get them together just for some selfish company. We are scared to be alone but we also stay alone to avoid people. We can’t give favors so we don’t ask for any. Most of us don’t want to be under the debt of favor bank. We happily say ‘See you soon’, but know inside that that time won’t come anytime sooner. We just stay happy in planning things than actually following that plan and achieving something out of it. We are like cow dung, a substance considering itself to be a fuel but never burning the whole lot, mostly wasting away.

Facebook, Twitter, Snapchat et cetera, now seems to be a mode for shy people, who can’t come face to face and say a hello, but pop up in a chat, if they hook someone online. These have become platforms to reach people but more to create distances between many, especially between ‘I’ and ‘myself’. We are, well lost!

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Fact: We are lazy. While I know you all quietly agree to it, I present my example to abstain you from feeling bad alone. It took me 1 hour to reach to my laptop to write few words, though it was just an arms distance away from me, though I am glad the effort is paying off.


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Fact: We blame. Because blaming self, hurts the esteem and lowers the confidence. Study a friend around you, a colleague, and a known person for few months if you need a proof. Oh! And don’t forget to study yourself too.



Fact: We pretend to be guilty. What an easy way to win over! ‘Ok! It is my mistake only, I only did wrong. I shouldn’t have cared so much, which is why now I am suffering’

Fact: We are pretentious. We think and make up our own cloud of pretentions. ‘She must be taking her revenge on me, now I told her the truth.’ ‘He cut the call deliberately, I know why!’

Fact: We are fooling ourselves. ‘I will quit smoking, I will! It is easy only, from 10 to 2 cigarettes per day.’ ‘I will meet my friends next weekend, after all where will they go anyways, today I can rest.’’ I will save money tomorrow, what difference will one day make, and now only is the time to expend.’


                                                                               
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Fact: We have Trust issues! After what we prove to others, as a person first, should we really think of giving others chances to trust us.

 But most of all, we are RUNNING! We are Running, from ties, from bonds, from responsibilities, from attachments, from favor banks, from being US!

We are portraying a ‘perfect’ us outside, oh how empty we are on the inside, how empty is our soul, how sad we are, though we laugh and smile everyday over beer, parties, lunch tables and in our offices. How sad…


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All we want is some company, some stories to tell, some to listen, some to make our own and it is surprising how frantically we are doing it all in a wrong way, making it complicated.

  • Buying a dress and feeling happy in that moment and when you wear it to show off.
  • Purchasing a car and driving everywhere, every day to feel your ability, power and confidence.


Materials that get tarnished, even before a human lifetime completes, are strangely more in demand and trend these days.

  • Sex becomes an interesting conversation, a much more interesting affair and love becomes whiff from a romantic Bollywood cinema?
  • Economy and Market still don’t effect the number of cigarettes you smoke in a day, or the weekend alcohol plan, it is but a mode to gain empathy in financial crises.
  • Blaming the country, government, and corruption while you are throwing that mint cover, on the footpath, after a smoke?
  • Having pride in what you have, letting others down, and pointing at their glitches?

Doesn’t something inside us itch and indicate a red-signal, a jump-wave? Like - ‘Hey!


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You! Yes You! What are you doing huh?!’  
Offering a piece of word/good wishes/advises halfheartedly because that makes you look good? Don’t you think the happy birthdays on you facebook account or some good looking horoscopes are a fool’s paradise? Don’t you feel robotized in this world? Who are you now? What you think about yourself? What can you change? How are you are different from the crowd around?

Look! Everyone around is in the same boat! Don’t you know, you need to recognize first yourself and then your value? What is your gift, what is your power in this world? Do we read ourselves yet?

Life is not a competition, it is a game of self-realization, without looking out for rewards.
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It is terrible that we are losing the connection with our conscience that we are not trying to establish it back. We are slowly shutting our human side down and waking up the animal inside us. How negatively pleasing to know our kind is just multiplying somewhere now.




Ta da the Bla Bla talks come to an end.. Thanks for the time

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