You Envy. Me Jealousy.

Envy vs Jealousy
Reading synonyms I often wondered why the same thing has different names. Like
Joy and Glee, Sadness and Grief. Now that I observe more and more each day. I find the difference unfold naturally. 

Jealousy hurts. Envy doesn't.
Jealously instills pain and anger. Envy instills desire, sometimes grief.
Jealously is insecurity. Envy is inferiority.

Envy presents as a burning sensation or a tingling, uneasy effect. 
Benign envy gives a sensation of tingling. Malicious envy feels like a burn.

Jealousy is always malicious.


"He earns more than I do, why?"
"Wish I earned as much as him."

Jealousy hurts. Envy doesn't. Now know which one is which.

Your love feels like a longing

Your love feels like a longing
I almost touch it but don't
I get to you, against all odds, 
Only to find you in another castle.

Your love feels like a longing
I almost reach you but don't
I hop times, spaces, Lives to get there
Only to trip over another trap.

Your love feels like a longing
I almost find you but don't
Making some sense in your absence
Only tunneling my thoughts endlessly.

Your love feels like a longing
I almost get you but don't
If you say yes, I say, I'd fight dragons
Only you deride a desire, heartlessly.

Your love feels like a longing
I almost change for you but don't
I try to become what you need
Only to lose you, then me, constantly.

Your love feels like you oblige
I almost believe it but don't
You may walk back to the starting line someday
And when you do, you won't have my company.

Failure is hard.

Failure is hard.
Constant failure, harder.